So I went outside to go to work today and HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!! It's semi warm!!!!!! What a great start to a hangover day! Happiness is when the snow melts! And creates puddles! The world was a giant puddle today! I was soooooooo tempted to jump in one! But realized walking into work soaking wet with a huge grin on my face probably wasn't the best option. Life can be sooo unfair at times. lol. Saw some guy shoveling a puddle today. Ya you read that right. He was shoveling a puddle. Not just any puddle. I could understand if it was like the walkway to his house...but no. He was shoveling a puddle on the side of the road. Welcome to spring. Here shovel a puddle. Sometimes people get far to wrapped up in routine lol. Made me laugh anyways!

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But i forget.. you don't expect and easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You cant expect a bit of hope
And while your outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what your staring at is me

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All i know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
And never dare make up the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(No more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself
Its just a different scene
Remember its just different from what you've seen

Im looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
And all i know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And its the stars
The stars
That shine for you
And its the stars
The stars
That lie to you.. yeah-ah

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All i know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And its the stars
The stars
That shine for you..
And its the stars
The stars
That lie to you..

And its the stars
The stars
That shine for you..
And its the stars
The stars
That lie to you..

Starting to feel like all I do is cry. One second life is great and then it all falls apart again only to go back to being great
makes you wonder why sometimes you bother at all. Life isn't that great to get all up and happy over. What ever it is you want in life you never seem to get anyways. Maybe my opinion will change if one of these days something will make me happy. but until then why bother. No matter what I do it will never be enough. So I give up. I give up trying to make other people happy. I don't try to be selfish or hurtful to people. I really don't. Normally I'm a pretty happy person. Till recently. I just don't see why I was trying so hard in the first place. Maybe one day I'll figure it out. Until then I'm gonna sit here in my little shell with my little fake smile and smile. Life will be great.

VIRGO: Dominant in relationships. Sexy. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight wit u babe. Everything u ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.

SCORPIO: Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever.... Romantic. Caring.

LIBRA: Very pretty or handsome. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Great salespersons...can talk their way into or out of anything and sell you anything. Smoothe talkers. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Can be amazing in bed if inspired and you can't shut them up. Not the kind of person you wanna skrew with... u might end up crying. The most irresistible if you are prone to swooning.

ARIES: Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Powerful and often a bit controlling. Passionate to the extreme. Intelligent. Vibrant and fearless. Not one to **** with, but a GREAT ****. Erotic. Funny. High sex drive and will take you on trips to the moon in bed. Remind you every day why you can't stand being apart from them. Excellent kisser. Spicy and eccentric. EXTREMELY sexy. Daring, Destructive, Decadent, Devious. Loves being in long relationships. Addictive. Loud. Best in bed by a landslide and often knows it.

AQUARIUS: Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. From the future. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, but will Knock your lights out. Arty and a little flighty, but worth it for love.

GEMINI: Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good in bed. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the hell out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. Very forgiving. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. Ultra sexy. The most irresistable. Random.

LEO: Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at sex. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Needs "fluffing" and to know they are loved and appreciated. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships, especially if they are the center of attention. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. Needs worship but reciprocates in other ways.

CANCER: Most amazing kisser. Very high sex appeal. Great in bed. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet. Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a fighter but will knock you lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. Creative in all aspects - love, sex, war - vindictiveness can be an art form. Artistic, passionate, and proud.

PISCES: Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too sexy, damn it. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Playful but kind. Extremely weird but in a good way. Willing to learn to please in bed. Good sense of humor. Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun, and sweet. Wants to be more dangerous so tends to fall for dangerous people. Flows like the water sign they are. Prefers love to war.

CAPRICORN: Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cruel if wronged. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun if inspired enough. Loves to joke. Loves to be the first... at everything. Smart, but often negligent to use it when they've got it. Wickedly creative and often great dancers

TAURUS: Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as ........ Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as .........Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to **** with. Passionate and strong, but can be hell if you piss them off.

SAGITTARIUS: Spontaneous. Freak in Bed. High sex appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna mess with u might end up crying.

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Blue Eyes-
People with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. They are pretty or handsome & very good kissers. They tend to reflect the sky they are staring at far too often as they are lost in daydreams. Their power comes with the strength of the winds, be it summer breeze or wicked tornado. They always fall in love with their closest friends and never understand why. When they do fall in love, it's usually after sex and before committment. They fall prey to passion and never fear looking someone else in the eye. They are very funny and outgoing and don't care what people think or say. They are very satisfying and love to please. They will always EXCEED your pleasure standards. The best of all. If you repost this and you have blue eyes you will have the best kiss sometime in the next 4 days.

-Green Eyes-
Sex Addicts!!!People with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, people with green eyes are very cute and love to cuddle. They have long lasting relationships. People with green eyes are also the horniest. They long for the touch of another.People with green eyes are very very sexy and very attractive towards the opposite sex. They are known throughout history as the sylphs and sirens that lure others in. They are also known for their vengeance and betrayal, so trust where you will. You will meet the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with if you repost this-

-Hazel eyes-
People with hazel eyes are GORGEOUS SEXY and go all out all the time.They have the most unusual relationships. They're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY challenge. They are also the best in bed and love to play games they are very out going and they are sexy as hell and they are NOT nice when they are mad . If you have hazel eyes and repost this you will learn your new favorite technique of catching someone special

-Brown Eyes-
Sexy as hell,people with brown eyes are very attractive, adorable, love to make new friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite. Can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. Best in bed can last for days.....way better than hazel eyed people.....Loves to please the one they care or love for,very good kissers, are straight up WARRIORS, not one to mess with!

for a specific person (you know who you are)
well I hope you feel like the biggest asshole in the world. That email got posted because you are a fucking moron especially writing me shit like that. I don't give one fucking crap if you think you are coming back into my life. Because its NEVER going to happen. The song that describes you.....combichrist = Lying sack of shit. Don't EVER EVER even think about showing up anywhere near my house or near my work. I don't need someone like you trying to fuck up my life. You already fucked it up enough don't you think? FUCK YOU adam. and all you stand for. k i'm done now. bye

So I got a brand new job!!!!!!! I am going to be working at the mall again. But its stable. And I'm excited! I soooooo have to celebrate this weekend weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

interesting thing I found out today.........

cafe mocha tastes horrible coming out your nose

So my fucking internet went down. AGAIN. You'd think I'd be used to this by now. Ya right. Pisses me off everytime. Although I've found out that internet cafes are awesome. So this is coming via internet cafe. fun fun fun. ya that's about it nothing else that interesting...see ya

I am sooooooooo bored and enjoying it. Wierd. I decided that sticking in and relaxing for once on a Saturday night would be nice. And it is. I think I am going to watch a movie...take a bath and head to bed early tonight.
On the downside. Neoki met a friends cat tonight, that was not impressed he was in the house. No real worries. A scratch or two that were cleaned up and one bite mark that was cleaned up aswell. I cleared the fur away from the wounds....funny puppies are more afraid of q-tips than scissors, and cleaned them up with soap and water... he's all good, a little sore so I'm keeping an eye on them. He should be okay. I'm not worried. Me on the other hand....about twenty claw stab marks in the leg, hip and ass. Damn they hurt. I call them stab marks because normally you get scratches, but when the claws go all the way in however....those are stab marks. these were all made by cat climbing me. ouchies. I think I'm in more pain. crazy cat! You know I'm starting to like dogs way, way more.

Comparison.....
Dogs - You come home. Dog completely freaks out cause he missed you. You get kisses and tail wags.
You say to dog. Good dog! Dog completely freaks out. You get kisses and tail wags.
You say to dog. Go for walk? Dog completely freaks out. You get kisses and tail wags.
You say no to dog. Dog puts head down. Upset he did something wrong.
You say to dog. It's okay come here. Dog completely freaks out. You get kisses and tail wags.

see a pattern here?
Cat - You come home. Cat looks up at you. In his eyes you see. Damn its home. Goes back to sleep.
You say to cat. Good cat! Cat looks at you like you are a moron, walks away and goes to sleep.
You say to cat. Go for a walk? Cat looks at you like you are a moron, goes back to sleep.
You say no to cat. Cat looks at you like you are a moron. Does it anyways. Makes sure you are watching the whole time.
You say to cat. Its okay come here. Cat looks at you like you are a moron, walks away, lays down and glares at you.

Dogs you can also get to play pretty much any time you want. Cats will play. When they want to play.
Dogs will normally lay down beside you if you are busy. Cats will lay on you or what ever it is you are busy with.
Dogs want your attention, they will put their head on you. cats will climb you or run at you with thier head down, or bite you.

Hmmmmmmmmmm...... I am starting to like dogs more and more. I even have my cats trained. I can say sit to one of them... and he will...provided it suits him to do as such. Now don't get me wrong. I love my cats I really do. But man. Can cats be bitchy.

Okay so The Book Of WEEEEE!!! has been created! Anyone with stories they want in it, email them to me with a subject line saying bookofweeeee!!! and I will add them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and noooo I haven't put anything in it yet...lol that would be work...muwahahaha me work? really I'll get around to that part of it...really....

Well there was alot to read...don't have the net for just over a week and all hell breaks loose....grrr...interenet disappearing is bad bad bad. Oh well....

UPDATE

Got the job at claires...working full time again!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! I love it. I have become the peircing person. Anytime anyone wants to buy body jewellry they come straight for me. Its kinda funny. And I found out I'm pretty damn good at sales...lol. Best part is I can wear pretty much what ever I want...don't have to do the whole business thing...happy me!!!!!!!!!!!

Kaylin's happy and hyper lately. She's watching dragon tales right now. Happy as can be there. Oh and terrorising my cat. Poor Jackyl.

GOT NEW PETS!!!!!!!!!!!! I now have two rats to add to my zoo! They're names are Racer and Nevyn I think I spelt that right. Anyways. Nevyn is my favorite...she has NO tail! Yes a tailless rat! she was born like that. You can tell cause she looks more like a hamster its funny. And yes I can tell the difference between rats and hamsters...she's a rat...hehehe
I brought them home from Donnie's on tuesday. Spoilt rats. teehee.

In other areas.. As happy as can be!!!!!!!! tonight I am going over to Donnie's for the night. Should expect to be tired tommorrow..LOL! Oh and beleive me....I am NOT complaining..tee hee! Saturday night i be out...I is going to abstract. Where else would I be? lol

Oh and I wish I would have known that Rev. Fester was guest dj at devolution....I would have tried my best to be there or to make a brief appearance. damn I hate it when my net just disappears...damn bell.

Oh well. anyways that about it...see yas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!